My Sophomore Year

Well, let's see where do I start. This year has been crazy!!! That pretty much sums it all up with that one word. I had my ups and downs. Sophomore year was definitely a challenge. However, it made me grow up and actually start to think. I snapped backed into reality and realized this is where my life begins. This is where it all happens and starts to unfold.

Yes, the work was harder and stronger. I had a lot of long, sleepless nights due to homework and studying. But I guess in the end, it payed off. Sometimes I wanted to just give up and just not care anymore because I was stressed and stressed for weeks and weeks at a time. I was almost close to not trying anymore but I realized something, I wouldn't just be giving up sophomore year, I would be giving up the rest of my life. I was to that point where I just hated my teachers for doing this to me. For giving me work I sometimes didn't understand, or for handing out tests that sometimes I didn't pass. Then I woke up one morning and realized they're trying to help me, not hurt me. If it wasn't for them, I wouldn't of made it to my almost junior year. The beginning of the year I slacked off, but when it came to the end I was scared there wouldn't be time to catch up. That's not what I want to do in life. It wasn't just the work that was hard at times, it was the stuff that happened out of the classrooms that was hard also. Drama, drama, drama. No matter what school your at in any state or country, there will always be craziness. Although it was all overwhelming at times, I never back down from a fight. As I learned in my classes as well. I don't regret the tenth grade, I would change a thing because as we all know these are memories, good and bad, we will cherish them forever. I'll tell you one thing though, my brain is totally dead. Just as it is every end of every year. I loved this year like I've said but I cannot wait until summer!!!!!

There have been fights and fits, old teachers getting fired and new teachers joining our future, F's and D's, fire drills and food fights, games with loses and wins, friendships going bad and breakups very sad, fears and tears, smiles and laughs, heartbreaks and headaches, and even referrals too. However, believe it or not this all has changed our lives. Forever. In some ways, better than others. There has been changes in my life throughout this year. Some I was not certainly ready for, but came to me fast and hard like a baseball roaming through the air. I tried as hard as I could to catch what was thrown at me. A lot of pressure came with sophomore year but I wont let myself down.

Someone once told me, "Sophomore year is the most important year for you in high school." Now, when this teacher told me that I thought to myself "Yeah right, what do you know, you haven't been a sophomore for a long time." :) Well turns out you were right Mr. Leh, it was important. Those words stuck in my head for the rest of the year. No pressure or anything right? :) Well I feel as if I could of done better. Good thing I still have two years to make up for it! Some would agree that finals are the worse part of school. It is true but what is also true is that it's what sums up the whole year and really gives us a good look at what this year did for us. I learned so much this year. Every year I learn a little more and this year was more than a little more.

Though this year was very powerful, I wouldn't change a thing, because I like a challenge and I haven't given up so far and I never will. I have never tried so hard to succeed in my whole life. Not just in school but out of school too. High School is just going by way to fast, and to be a honest I'm a little scared of it ending. All my life, people have always expected less of me, to be honest I like it when they do because then I can give them more. And every year I pass it's like a slap in the face for them. I know more than I did before I got here and that feels good to say. It's true what they say, High School is the best time of your life. I wont ever forget it. Any of it. None of us would have made this far without each other. Without every ones help. So those teachers that drove me nuts all year, I realized they have touched my life in a positive way. They have grown on me, they're not just my teachers anymore, their my friends too. I thought my life wouldn't begin until after school was over, but I guess today I realized that its just begun. I can't wait to continue this journey at this school. I think that I have laughed my way through school. If that makes any sense at all. To say the least, Sophomore Year has been a roller coaster ride through it all, and those make me nauseous.. So tomorrow when we walk out of this building, some of us anyways, it wont be the end, because it's just starting.

My Nephews

So well I was thinking about what to write for this essay, I had some ideas but well lets just say I threw everything on my mind out the window and just thought about the most important thing to me. Which would be my nephews. So that is what I am going to write about since I have no idea what else I could write about. So lets start with, I have 2 nephews, my only nephews, both from my sister. my oldest nephew is Steven he is 11 and my youngest nephew Joshua, he is 2. Those boys are my life. I guess you could say they are like my brothers, sometimes even like my kids, because we are so close. They used to live with us but my sister and her boyfriend, and them moved out a few months ago. Which was kind of happy and sad at the same time. Even though they only live like 3 minutes away.

You know when they used to live with me I was counting the days till they would be gone because they are soooooo annoying. But now that they are I wish they never left. My older nephew Steven is the kind of guy who acts like a big brother. He looks in my phone for boys numbers. He always has to know what I'm doing or where I'm going at all times. He even gives me lectures like my dad. But trust me he acts his age because he is a brat. He loves to torture me and of course embarrass me, one day at the mall this lady came up to me and asked me how old is your son ? I was like WHAT?? Do I look that old. He's 11. Gosh And Steven just laughed and now he reminds me of it all the time. He drives me nuts.



He's not perfect, he has his fair share of troubles. HE knows everything about me and I know everything about him. Almost everything.. He is like my diary because we have our little secrets that no one knows, we threaten each other with them too. But nothing a pinkie promise couldn't fix. However, he is the smartest kid I know, he might even be smarter than me. Me and him always find ourselves getting in trouble together, especially in public. We make messes together but we still manage to blame each other. For EVERYTHING. I would do anything for him. He is always coming to me for advice and I am willing to give it to him. The kid has more problems than I do. Not really. Me and him stick together, he wants to follow in my footsteps. It's always us against the world and that's how it's always going to be. But don't let this essay fool you because we also fight a lot. It's only normal that I want to beat him all the time and that he is always bugging me.



Now about my nephew Joshua, he may be only be 2 but he is just as bad. We laugh about how he is going to be the trouble maker because he is tough, and he is a little mini bully. He beats everyone up. But for some reason he is so close to me. Hew new. Haha. When he was tinier than he is now he used to call me Mom because I pretty much act liked it the whole entire time. One day at walmart he was crying and screaming because he wanted to get out of the basket and he was all "mama, mommy" screaming that the whole time. Everyone was looking at me like gosh that's her son, she is so young. Teenagers these days. It was sooo embarrassing. See he even starting driving me crazy at a young age. And one day we will tell him that story and I gurantee you he will hold it against me. My family still does. Don't get me wrong my sister is an amazing mom but he just gets us confused. Because sometimes she has to be the bad guy and I am always the one he goes to after that. I find myself always babying him, even when I shouldn't. I am like that with both my nephews. I am always defending them and standing up for them. When they get in trouble, or they get yelled at, who do they run to? Yup, me! My sister always tells me that they need to learn responsibilities and that I need to stop protecting them. But that is like asking me to make my heart stop beating, Wont ever happen till the day I die. When my nephew cries I am the on to wipe their tears away, tell off whoever pissed off Steven, or hug my baby nephew when he is hurt. Josh may be barley learning to talk, and Steven may make me wish he never knew how to talk, but they will rule the world, they already started with mine.



My sister and her boyfriend always talks about having another baby. My brother and his girlfriend do too. Ummm well I'm not sure I want another little nephew or maybe niece running to me. That's all my family talks about, how amazing and interesting it is that they are both so close to me. I think my sister even gets a little jealous. But they're not just close to me, I'm close to them. They're the most important boys, almost guys, and soon to be men in my life. They are my life. And I'm sure as they grow they will still always be bugging me, interrogating the boys I date, get me in trouble, embarass me, hold everthing against me, and never leave me alone. But I don't mind because that means they will always be by my side. And I will never stop protecting them from everything and everyone but myself. :] So I thank my sister everyday for bringing them in my life.

Wisdom Quote..

“Be happy. It's one way of being wise.”

I guess you could say this is what I want people to remember even when one day I'm gone. Being happy is the key to everything in your life. It's a choice you must make for yourself to be happy. It's a wise choice. You have to want to be happy in everything you do because it wont happen on its own. If that is what you choose then you have made a wise decision as they say. If you think about it I don't think you really want to leave this world unhappy. SO why not leave it happy.

Being wise could mean many things. There are many ways to be a wise person. And I believe one of those reasons of being wise is to just be happy. Be yourself. I believe strongly in this quote I wrote because I am a genially happy person. I guess that makes me wise. Having wisdom makes you a strong person. Your powerful in your way. The knowledge you build up inside of you makes you wise and choosing to be happy makes you wise, makes you smart. You have to learn how to control your mind and enlighten yourself.

Intelligence is also a big part of the wisdom to gain. You have to be happy in life. It's one way of succeeding. When you can hear your beat, then your happy. If you think about it being happy solves everything. They always say to find the key to happiness but you are the key. Your the only one that can choose to be something. It's no one Else's decision. being happy will take you long way in life. I don't know about you but I have had a lot of great memories in life when I was happy, and I am looking foward to having a lot more before these words will be the last words people here from me. So remember be happy, and if your not happy, make yourself happy. If you can't then try again because it will takr you far in life. You will be wise.